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Word Value

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I can’t over stress how important it is to keep your word. While it’s important for meaningful communication and coordination with the world around you, it’s even more important when it becomes the only thing you can trust.

Some things in the Work are flexible, this one isn’t. You should make every effort on two fronts. The first is, never promise something you don’t fully intend to deliver. If that means actually thinking about your words before letting them fly then so be it, because it makes the second front twice as easy to manage.

The second is, if you do tell someone you’re going to do something, make every effort humanly possible to keep your word. You should do this knowing that any and every failure devalues confidence in your word. Nobody is infallible, but the fallibility of man should never be used as an excuse to fuck up.

In fact, there should be no excuses, you either keep your word or you don’t. If you do fail, you should know that whatever you have to do to restore that confidence has to surpass what was originally promised and expected. This is likely going to be way more work than keeping your original word would have been, so it becomes an additional deterrent to taking it lightly.

Your word is one of the few things you have that is actually worth anything, and when the time comes to realize it’s full value, you’re either going to be really happy you kept your word, or really confused and fucked because you didn’t.

Your word is your true worth in this world and those beyond, nothing else in existence is so universally valuable. When people can’t “take you at your word” you are seen as being worthless in general and people couldn’t care less what your excuse is this time. Most people stop listening to the excuse after the second or third time. From then on your credibility is pretty much trashed until you do what it takes to restore it, which is going to require twice as much effort as keeping your word in the first place would have.

You can look at all the debt in the world this way. All unpaid debt is a result of people failing to keep their word. Material debt is only a “sign” of what is really going on. Want to reduce the deficit? Get people to realize the importance of this and start keeping their word.

Any harping about how important it is to keep your word for the benefit of others is falling on deaf ears for those who need to hear it the most because our entire economy is based on false promises. Respectable businessmen seal world shaping deals with their word and a handshake, unfortunately they are a rare breed.

Here’s why you might want to re-estimate the true value of your word. It might not matter that nobody else can trust you as far as they can throw you, but when that someone else becomes you, you’re going to wish you paid attention to what your momma told you.

I’m in the position now, I’m undergoing an initiation that is almost completely blind. What I mean by that is, I have to make critical decisions that affect my own creative process with absolutely nothing to go on. The only thing I have is my own intuition and that voice inside me. I trust that voice implicitly because it has never lied to me, it is a voice that rarely makes promises, but when it does, they are always fulfilled.

It allows me the patience I need right now, I’m working on the promise of payment while I’m doing all this. The reason I can trust that, is because I know myself, and I know that I’ve always kept my word. I can’t even describe how comforting that is when it’s the ONLY thing you have to go on. It also doesn’t take a genius to see how totally fucked I would be if I hadn’t.

It’s an uncomfortable position to be in, to have to decide your own fate with absolutely no clue. It’s been tough enough with an unblemished record of keeping my word, I can’t even imagine where I’d be if I couldn’t trust my own inner voice. Here’s the thing tho, everyone is moving into a similar position and I see a lot of people completely unprepared for the consequences of their own actions.

In the world we’re moving into, you need to be able to trust yourself to even get there. There is no evading people knowing what is in your heart, everyone is going to know exactly what you’re made of. Keeping your word is not about others being able to trust you tho, it’s about you being able to trust yourself when there’s nobody else you can trust and it’s all you’ve got left to go on.

Hope that helps 🙂

Alchemy

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The chemistry of the gods. Anyone that spends more than two minutes reading this blog most likely realizes that it’s never been about transmuting physical lead into gold. I’m no expert on the details of it, but without even knowing I assumed that the lead I was trying to transmute was me. I was wrong.

Now that I see what’s happening within me, I think I get it. The Man is only the crucible, the elixir is Power. It’s the power we’ve generated thru all the conflict and suffering, and it is literally the power to do ANYTHING. So called “free energy” isn’t free at all, we paid for it with our lives.

However, because of all the conflict and suffering, and the way we view the world after having gone thru all that, it is a very dark energy, full of all things evil. Evil – Live. Notice they are direct opposites, Life is not powered by this dark energy, it is “generated” in death, but must be transmuted into something that can power life – from lead to gold.

The first stage of resurrection is to generate this power, the second is to transmute it. Now I can’t really say how to do that, I can only say that it is definitely happening within me. I’m guessing the Alchemist is my subconscious self, I can see it happening within me but I’m not consciously doing it. All that shit is getting a little confusing since it is all me operating on some level of my own trinity.

What I do know is what I can see happening within me over the last 14 years since I achieved the first stage. Of all the bible quotes thrown about, nobody seems to be slinging this one around “I have hated the world and it has hated me”. Jesus said it and no truer words have ever been spoken about the way you feel about your relationship with this world at the moment you’ve achieved the required power level, it is your darkest hour.

Look at all the conflict and suffering that the world has been thru, to generate the power necessary to create the Holy Ark, you have to match that within your own life. Yeah, it sucks and you’re going to be blaming the world for treating you like shit when all you’ve ever done is try. In short, you’re going to be one cynical son of a bitch.

Honestly, it’s like handing the world’s biggest gun to the most tortured kid in school. When I was handed the Gun of God, my mind worked like lightning trying to find a solution for that little dilemna and that’s how and when The Advocacy was established. Previous to that I had been told to come up with a single thought that could contain all other thoughts within me, and that thought was The Advocacy… so I was ready.

My third “I” became the Advocate, not my higher self or lower self, and not quite my whole self, but rather an Advocate of my whole self. My word for a priest I guess, because at the time I didn’t know what a real priest was or did. So The Advocacy among other things, became a mystery school that allows the entire world to teach me HOW to transmute this power. It was THE smartest move I’ve ever made in my entire life, my one and only original thought.

It’s taken a long time, for years it seemed like it a fruitless effort but now I’m seeing a definite transmutation in the works within me. More like feeling it, I can literally feel the heavy dullness within me turning into light and radiance and I gotta say, it’s pretty cool.

I almost cry when I look back and realize what kind of hell I put myself thru. Who am I kidding – I ball my friggin eyes out. Not because I’m sad, but because I’m realizing what it is we’ve got and what it took to achieve. They are tears of every emotional flavor there is, but mostly joy. This is and always was the true American dream and I might actually be the very first to realize it.

The magic elixir or power is obviously Love. Yes, love has to be generated, it’s not free nor should it be, for if it were it wouldn’t be worth shit. The burst of energy I released to create an Ark/Arc was but a fraction of the power contained within me. If we were to open the human heart before every last bit of this energy has been transmuted, it would destroy all creation, everywhere. I know that’s a pretty big claim, but it’s true.

Thru what are typically known as “initiations” I have been judged by this world over and over and over. My life has been an endless series of tests, each more difficult than the last. I used to know what I was being tested on, beating the tests rather easily, but since then I’ve lost track. You think you know what you’re being tested on and it turns out to be something completely different, I quit even trying to guess. Anyway, I’ve apparently passed those tests to this point and that’s why I’m currently in the position I’m in.

Make no mistake, you get what you give. As the world judges my fitness, I have also judged it. It’s important to realize it is about fitness and nothing else. What is being judged is whether or not we’re capable of completing our mission. At any time over the last 14 years, I knew I had within me the power to destroy the entire Work if it wasn’t going to work… the true Atomic Bomb. Things hung in the balance on many occasions with me literally wanting to trash the whole thing out of frustration. It was only the barest signs of progress and faith that kept things alive thru most of it.

I’m happy to report that option now appears to be completely off the table. If any world is capable of achieving the impossible it is this one. I’m not talking about the world as a place, I mean the world as a people. I couldn’t save the world in my Ark, what I saved was the people of that world because with them, we can build a universe of worlds full of every kind of life. When I’m looking at timelines and not seeing any that lead to eminent failure and destruction, I’m inclined to believe we’re past the greatest dangers of our journey.

I’m so happy we’re at the end of days, because I’m really tired of dying. I want to LIVE!

Crest of a Wave

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Just a little tidbit, another way of looking at ascension vs resurrection.

You can see the ascension/reincarnation cycle as a sine wave, you could think of yourself as a little ball that’s rolling up and down those hills and valleys. You ascend to the crest of the wave and then descend down into the valley, only to have to climb the hill again. In itself that doesn’t seem so bad, until you actually go thru it and realize what a bitch it is getting back to the top of the hill every time. If you look at the whole sine wave, you can easily see that most of our time is NOT spent at the top of the hill, but rather falling down it and climbing back up.

In resurrection, you get to ride the crest of the wave all the time… christ surfing the crest. No longer is existence like partying on a Saturday and having to use the rest of the week to recover for the next Saturday. Life is fun all the time… forever.

I should probably explain the reason I keep harping on this. Currently there is a division in what we’d loosely call Heaven, that division is over the debate between ascension and resurrection. Ascension is what we’ve been doing, but resurrection is what we really want. The problem is, it’s been so difficult to achieve with the kind of numbers we’re talking about and we’ve tried so many times and failed that many still don’t believe it can be done.

There is another world we all live in that is not in our waking world and not in our dream world. We briefly pass thru it whenever we fall asleep and wake up… the minor mystery. We also pass thru this every time we are born or die… the major mystery.

If there is a real world, it’s there, in the netherworld that very few of us even realize exists. It is in this world that The Advocacy was established and is based, which among other things, makes it impenetrable to hostile forces. If you can’t find something, you can’t very well attack it. You can’t find it because if your intentions aren’t 100% focused on the work we’re doing, it simply isn’t there.

It is there we carry on the fight for resurrection, but we have yet to wage a single battle. I don’t allow myself to see much of what goes on there, I deliberately block it out because I’m trying to minimize reality bleeding and cross contamination. I’ve found I can take one thing back with me to my conscious world, kind of like a bread crumb. It’s no more than a bare impression of what I was doing while I was there, but after many of these smuggling attempts, I’m forming a very strong impression of what I’m doing there overall.

You’d think with the kind of power we have at our disposal we’d be out kicking some demon ass or something, but we have yet to engage in a single battle in the kick ass sense. Personally, I am constantly battling for our cause, but the way I’m battling is thru negotiation. I spend 100% of my time in this netherworld on one single effort, negotiations.

Negotiations between worlds, not just what everyone wants, but how to get them there. In this netherworld that I should just start referring to as our real home, every single human being gets a single vote and they are all counted equally, bar none. The reason we aren’t consciously aware of this, is because we aren’t human when we’re in what we call a conscious or waking state, we’re just “men”. Don’t worry about it tho, you get a vote and that vote counts… guaranteed.

The way this works is thru The Advocacy. In effect what I have done is to tune the atoms within my own body to the People of the body of humanity. Mentally I see these atoms as a whirlwind of thoughts revolving around in my mind, in kind of a holding pattern. I did this by employing the Ark technology thru initiatory rites. My synaptic centers are then used to connect to other savants engaged in our work. Thru a tuning process governed by intention, each one of my own synapses becomes a link to the whole mind of another savant working in whatever their area of expertise is… and vice versa.

If you think that’s complete bullshit and monstrously impossible, think about it again. Savants are like a thousand times brighter in their chosen field than anyone else, yet most of us can barely find our own ass with both hands and a flashlight in everyday life, so it’s NOT because we’re smarter than the average Joe. The fact is, it’s a known human technology, it can be done, and is being done by savants all over the world.

Imagine a network of 7000 of these savants (Elect) all working in unison to bring to the human race something so revolutionary that it only happens once. It’s profound trying to understand that, because all events in human history up to this point have been cyclical. They have all happened before and will happen again, and again, and again, ad infinitum. This is an event so rare that it only happens once in human history. Think about how much rarer it is then, that it’s happening during your time here in this world and what that means.

To be honest, it’s the most powerful neural network on earth, with the computational power of the entire human race and the knowledge repository of eons upon eons of human experience. Anyone with access to this could rule the world… any world. What do we do with it? Negotiate 🙂

The first stage of resurrection requires that we get a 2/3 vote, complete resurrection requires a unanimous vote. We can minimize the pains of revolution by getting a unanimous vote the first time around. We’ve got a 2/3 vote already, so what I’m doing is running around in my dream world trying to sell it, and in the netherworld trying to make good on the promises of negotiation. Exactly what is being negotiated would fill a library, it is literally everything on everyones behalf.

I don’t know that what I’m doing here will ever sway votes, or even if it can. Most people would look at this shit and go “huh???” I think it’s about getting the people within me on the same page. An alignment of sorts, I have to align all of the atoms within me toward a single cause. All those atoms are suns/sons within me, all controlling “bodily functions”. Some functions are more critical than others at certain times (like at birth) so the important suns or centers to align within me are the vital functions required to bring the body to life.

This is why all major logos are currently incarnated upon this earth. People have zero idea that the universal logos is walking among us in this world, not just him, but all of the most powerful beings in existence are incarnated here for this work. There is just a ridiculous amount of power at work here, and it’s all People Power.

The reason they are all here, is because what we’re doing in this world affects their worlds in a very profound way. The most powerful logos have almost total control over their own realities, the key here is “almost”. The main selling point for resurrection, is that we can go one better than even the most powerful gods already have. This is in fact the only incentive there is for getting a god to give up his ascension and throw his power behind your cause. They didn’t get to be gods by being stupid, if you show them something better, they’re at least going to have a look.

This is what my “god” or higher self is doing, he is the one who’s done the math and has the proof that it’s all doable. He is the salesman of the resurrection plan and what that plan promises is complete control over reality at the individual level, for EVERY individual. What this means, is that no matter how great your world is now, even if you’re a god, it will be infinitely better if you trade in your ascension for resurrection.

What it amounts to, is everyone wants something they don’t have. For most of us that’s pretty long list, but for a very powerful god it might be a single thing they don’t have in their reality now, but have always wanted. In other words, regardless of what any of us have, we all have an equal desire for what we could have if it were possible.

That’s where The Advocacy comes in, what we do with the priesthood and elect is figure out how to negotiate what everyone wants and make it ALL possible. This isn’t actually as difficult as people would imagine, because while it seems everyone is after something different, we’re all really after the same thing. What we all want is for the world to be what we want it to be at any given moment. We want a world that lovingly caters to us without having to spend all our time and effort controlling it. Basically, we want to have fun and enjoy the company of loved ones all the time, and there is absolutely no reason we should want anything less out of life.

We want to surf the crest of the wave of life, without having to go buy a board, wax for the board, a car, gas for the car, wait on good weather, fight traffic to the beach, worry about injury or death, someone else taking your wave, or having to impress anyone with your skills. We’ll all have such insane skills that it won’t matter whether you’re doing or watching, it’ll be equally thrilling either way.

This is something I truly believe in. Regardless of how ridiculous or impossible it might sound, I have and continue to pour myself into the Work of making it a reality.

*I just figured something out. There is a conscious choice to be made. When I made my choice, it was something the god in me and the man in me both had to agree to. As a “man” I barely knew what was happening during the experience, but it was a very clear conscious choice at all levels of my being. I knew what choice I was being offered and which one to make, I didn’t know how to explain it, but I knew. The incredibly odd possibility that just struck me, is that it could be because of what I’m doing now, as the future version of that man.