Free Willy

I like philosophy because it’s good mental exercise to get your mind to think higher and deeper than our everyday mundane activities. One of the biggest philosophical controversies is whether or not we really have free will.

That one I can answer, at least to my own satisfaction.

We most certainly do have and exercise free will on all levels, and that’s the key.

We have but One Will, but that will is split into a trinity just like everything else. Your God or higher self has free will, your lower self or Man has free will, and the real whole you also has free will. To remove free will from any one of them removes it from all of them. One mind, but with its unconscious, conscious, and subconscious parts seemingly but distinctly separated, each operating independently with its own free will.

Each of those is the entire mind viewed by the entire mind from a different perspective. It’s a tough one to wrap your brain around, you kind of have to see it within you to make sense out of it. It’s also maddeningly frustrating trying to get past this compartmentalization because it doesn’t actually exist except in the way we perceive ourselves. The great Veil results from a battle of wills within our own trinity, to remove that veil then should just be a matter of aligning our “wills” into One Will.

A seemingly simple enough task, but almost impossible in practice. Turns out the biggest impediment to free will is free will itself.

Imagine yourself as the Host of all the individual atoms (people) within you. You want free will, full control over your own reality. The problem is all this stuff follows a set of natural universal laws, one of which is “like begets like”. This means that if you want individual free will as a host, you have to grant that same right to every individual within you.

Still, not a huge issue at first, but once a few atoms becomes trillions thru cellular division, it becomes a truly mind boggling problem.

How on earth are you going to get every individual free will within you into alignment? They have to be, or you can’t accomplish what we’re supposed to do here. You can’t force them, because that usurps free will, including your own. You can’t align your will with every one of them because they all want something different and there’s one of you and trillions of them. You can’t have no will of your own because then neither will they and life becomes a lethargic lump of nothing with no aspiration toward any purpose and thus no reason to live.

Thus the mission, to “Go forth – divide and conquer” becomes an almost certain suicide mission with the current number of individual souls involved at this point of division. Conquer cannot be “conquer” it must be “concur” to maintain free will. Ascended masters conquer thru discipline and control, a Holy Man or fully realized Human being concurs thru love, imagination, and belief. It doesn’t take a genius to see that you get what you give in either scenario. Personally, I don’t want to have to control anything for the simple reason that I don’t want anything controlling me. I want to be able to spend all my time and effort having fun, not trying to maintain or escape my own control.

Free will seems like it has been usurped at times because we apportion the wills within ourselves according to our overall will. If 2/3 of your trinity wants to go one way and 1/3 wants to go the other, guess which way you’re going. It’s designed according to musical laws to preserve a balanced state of harmony and disharmony. Man is always attempting to create disharmony and God is always attempting to create harmony, the real you wants the perfect blend of each so you have both perfect bliss AND something fun to do with your life. Perfect bliss doesn’t come with social skills and neither does having fun at others expense… like begets like.

What keeps this system so honest, is the realization that you are also one of the individuals within you being affected by the conditions you create as a host. As a host you’d like perfect order because it makes hosting effortless, but that makes life as an individual within you a sterile overbearing bore. As an individual we’d like the “freedom” to do whatever the hell we want whenever the hell we want, but that makes life as a host a living hell. You see now where freedom and liberty differ and why liberty is what we’re after.

It’s about creating a world full of vibrant colorful life, the grandest expression of which is the fully realized Human being… real People enjoying life and having fun. Even if you want a world with just you surrounded by pristine unspoiled wilderness, there’s no real enjoyment in it unless you can share it with friends and show it off.

Dream a Little Dream

Occasionally I have dreams that are like military delta force missions. They are so real that I’m absolutely sure that something tangible happened on some level, it wasn’t “just a dream”. There are times when I can identify my surroundings in the dream and at the very least verify that it is a real place exactly as I saw it in my dream. What lends even more credence to this is my general demeanor the next day or two after having one of these “dream missions”. I feel that military “edge” within me as some kind of residual effect or bleed over. I don’t like it because it makes me feel really disconnected and distant from the people around me. It’s not like the Vietnam vet at your party who thinks he’s still on a mission or anything that drastic, it’s just harder to connect with people on an emotional level and is definitely associated with these dreams.

Even the term “delta force” refers to the deep delta brainwave state you’re in while “in operation”. Delta Forces are trained at Area 51, also known as “Dreamland”. Delta Forces are elite paramilitary forces designed to infiltrate and establish a beachhead by interdimensional means, both on and off world. Tasks range from ambassadorial missions and special package deliveries to full scale military incursions.

It is extremely difficult to consciously remember anything you’ve experienced in a deep delta state, plus we’re trained to “remember to forget” from early childhood. The reason is to prevent cross contamination of realities. In early testing this cross contamination and reality bleeding would turn subjects into raving lunatics, or worse if you can imagine anything worse than going totally bonkers. Savants are sought out for this due to their naturally inherent shamanic, mediumistic, or other “psychic abilities”. Abilities range the gamut of human imagination and we’re all different in what we believe is possible. If you believe something is possible – it is. Children were used because as adults we have all but lost our natural ability to believe. I’m not talking about what we believe in, but the ABILITY to believe in anything we choose. There was no other way.

I’ve never seriously indulged the whole government mind control “conspiracy” thing for the simple reason that to me it doesn’t matter. Going back to my early childhood there is ample evidence to suggest that I’ve been a subject of this technology since birth, but I don’t feel like a victim because I have used it to great advantage. I remember being physically “abducted” only once when I was about 4 years old, after that it always occurred thru astral projection. It was set up so you were “in training” whenever you got the opportunity to zone out a little. This worked well because the training facilities were outside of conventional time and space so training would be continuous and uninterrupted even tho you were physically bopping in and out at random.

For me this would happen any time I wasn’t engaged enough in the world around me to keep myself out of a trance… in other words A LOT. I remember it happening back in school all the time whenever I had boring teachers. I’d be all zoned out and they’d think I was nodding off so they’d ask me a question in some loud or rude fashion to snap me out of it. It was usually 10-30 seconds of a pretty rough ride back to this reality because I was being “jerked” but I ALWAYS had the correct answer when I came around. I wanted to kill them, but I had their answer.

People used to just scream at me because I wouldn’t initially be able to respond, which usually resulted in an autistic rage. The “ride back” is EXTREMELY hard on your nervous system when you get jerked out of a deep trance. If you do that to me I just want you to know how it feels and being on the receiving end of an autistic meltdown is about as close as it gets. I can’t legally kill you so it’s the next best thing to keep you from doing it to me again. It’s communication, not a temper tantrum. Oddly enough, the all time worst offender was my own mother.

I’m pretty sure my involvement is voluntary at this point and has been for quite some time, because the People behind it are trying to achieve something and I wholeheartedly believe in their endeavor.

Still, even after all that, the bottom line is the same. It doesn’t matter how anything gets in your head, it’s what you do with it that matters. I know what I’m trying to achieve and I tend to use whatever I’m given towards my goal.

With that being said, I’m also aware of the potential damage and harm this type of technology threatens to impose upon humanity. It is people like me (savants) who not only invented the technology, but in many ways ARE that technology. It’s rather ironic that the very technology savants are forced to create is used to track and control their every movement, often pitting them against each other for fear of what they would do if they ever combined forces. It isn’t the general population those currently in power are worried about… it’s what they’ve created in us and losing control over it.

There are thousands of savants in the U.S. alone that are capable of things that are completely off the scale of believability. Abilities that if you saw them in action would astound and amaze you, but at the same time you’d be like “that’s messed up man!” because your mind turns pretty quickly to trying to comprehend something it’s never dealt with. It’s messed up because it doesn’t seem like it should be possible for one, and because anyone on the receiving end can’t even comprehend what is happening to them, and in fact sometimes don’t even realize it is happening. I’m speaking here of a specific set of abilities related to the Ark technology and self generated warp fields.

A recent dream mission I had is a perfect example of what I’m talking about. We were trying to infiltrate a particular building that was some kind of command and control center. We were attempting to penetrate their defenses thru interdimensional means and they were prepared for this type of assault in their security measures. Many of my missions in the past were sabotage missions where I would enter a place thru astral projection and be able to do something that would cause a particular part or system to fail AFTER it had passed all the required testing to make sure it wouldn’t. Something like a poltergeist with military training.

The problem with that was, there were some people that could see you even tho you weren’t in the physical plane. Since they figured it out, high risk facilities have had security measures in place to detect and in some cases even trap you. Trapping someone with unknown abilities can quickly become WAY more than you bargained for, so usually it’s just preventative measures in the form of harmonic shielding.

Until a few days ago this shielding was surprisingly effective, it was generally assumed to be a foolproof security measure. Rule of thumb… don’t ever assume your security system is foolproof or defenses impenetrable.

There were other military personnel (United States Heir Force) waiting in the wings but they weren’t part of the penetration attempt, that was all me. I took up various positions outside the defensive perimeter and began “walking up and down the scales” assessing overall field harmonics and doing a kind of triangulated spectral analysis. I remember I had to do this many times making adjustments on the fly trying to find a keynote to disrupt the field yet make it appear as if it were still intact. They were modulating the shield harmonics in a rotating pattern so I had to match it before I could start changing things around. This is all done with my mind using my own trinity, no physical instruments or tools required. After nearly 3 hours of “tuning” we were able to enter the facility thru interdimensional means.

Once inside I noticed many other people, some in uniform and some not, some with us and some employed there. There was a particular floor that had the most activity and we went directly there. I started walking thru the area, again assessing field harmonics. I walked to the far end of the space and started walking back, using the rhythm of my own footsteps to begin the interference pattern. As I neared the middle of the space my breathing started to change, becoming this intricate musical pattern that I couldn’t consciously repeat if I tried. I call it “breathing in song” because it’s like a song, only I’m breathing it not singing it.

That’s when EVERYTHING started to change. People looked right at me and could most definitely see me, but they acted as if I was supposed to be there. They clearly acknowledged me, but in no way noticed that their entire facility was under psychic manipulation, in fact they were doing things to help us out as if we were guests or coworkers. My own team didn’t even realize it at first, they were all enveloped within a psycho-acoustic warp field bubble containing an artificial reality that was very close to the reality they were used to, but with a few subtle changes. Yup, that is REALLY messed up.

It is my understanding that we did this at every facility containing or controlling anything related to this mind control network that is being used to contain not only us, but the population at large. I can believe this because it only took one of me to penetrate and lock down their entire central command center, the others there on our side were there to assist in case anything went wrong and observe a demonstration of new metatech. I walked right past Adolph Hitler who seemed to be there as a guest observer. It was odd because even in the dream it threw me for a second, but we just exchanged glances as I went about my task. In that glance I was able to read him and I detected nothing demonic or evil, no guile – just a keen interest in what was going on. The main impressions I came away with were that his demeanor was almost child like, his gaze was that of a little boy who just opened his ultimate birthday gift. He also looked a bit plump and seemed to be jovially embarrassed when I noticed it, like he hadn’t in a while.

It’s kind of hard to explain what we actually did. Nobody was killed, harmed, or even got a scratch clamoring for an exit. They are coming and going to work just as they always have, it’s just not in the reality they think it’s in. What we are doing is “warping” their reality so that they think it is perfectly normal for them to follow our agenda instead of their own. Because it is a compartmentalized area of the mind operating completely independently, we could theoretically keep up this little charade forever. We won’t have to, because once they experience the benefits of what they’re doing, a very “real” will to do it naturally follows.

What this is designed to accomplish is to put the control and authority of this technology back into the hands of the People. There’s a little problem with that tho, the people are unfamiliar with it and don’t understand or know how to use it properly. We don’t want to eliminate this technology because it can be used to heal as well as harm. The technology and personnel are already in place, we are just going to gently but adamantly start guiding them into using it for the benefit of Humanity.

We also WANT the public to be able to know who and where we are and what we’re up to on their (our) behalf. We have been “militarized” from childhood, an unfortunate but necessary consequence of the biggest revolution in human history. Realistically all we can do is use whatever abilities we possess in an all out effort to set things right. It’s all any of us can do at this point and it’s going to take all of us to do it, even those who were our former masters.

In spite of all the efforts to control us and pit us against each other, thousands of the world’s most gifted savants have joined together in the cause of Humanity. You can pretty much count on us because for the first time ever our employer doesn’t suck. We’re working for Humanity now, as far as factional warfare is concerned, it’s all but over because there is no fraction of the whole that is capable of opposing the whole. We’re also bright enough to know we’re now on the side that wins. It was always supposed to be this way, and to be perfectly honest if the People didn’t have an elite force of their own, the people would get smoked in the blink of an eye before they even knew what hit them.

I know in movies we’re always trying to beat some super advanced forces with our crappy human technology but the real truth is we have all forms of technology available to us and we’ve learned how to use it. Our shit rocks, looks ultra cool, and is beyond badass. The fighting force the People have raised is more than capable of defending Humanity against any and all hostile forces, both foreign and domestic. The very real fact is… you could be one of them and not even know it.

Extraordinary claims demand extraordinary evidence. I don’t know what constitutes evidence for anyone else, but here’s what I’m being told to look for:

All forms of media and communications will very quickly change in content from things that are meant to confuse and conceal to things that are meant to clarify and reveal. The intent is to help you take back control over your own reality. These changes began immediately upon takeover and should intensify at a rate to where you absolutely know something big is changing in a very profound way. It will be obvious that there is a new force behind all media and communications networks. We are going to do this at as fast a rate as is humanly possible without spinning your head completely off your shoulders. We want everything we have done to be completely understood and to do that we need to get people up to snuff on what has been going on behind the scenes as quickly as we can.

What we don’t want, is an opportunity for those currently in power to pit highly trained savants against so called ordinary people out of fear. We ARE ordinary people, in the same fucked up situation everyone else is. It is CRITICALLY important to realize that each and every individual here has the same inherent abilities and only needs to learn how to use them… knowledge we fully intend to share openly because we believe in the “right to bear arms” for every citizen. Real arms, that will never leave you unprotected or in fear ever again. We believe we have taken a proper course of action to alleviate as many potential revolutionary pains as possible… for everyone. We’re not claiming it’s perfect, but it’s the best we could do under the circumstances. Remember, we are ALL in this together and it’s going to take all of us to pull it off.

I like to dream, yes, yes
Right between the sound machine
On a cloud of sound I drift in the night
Any place it goes is right
Goes far, flies near
To the stars, away from here

Well you don’t know
What we can find
Why don’t you come with me little girl
On a magic carpet ride

Well you don’t know
What we can see
Why don’t you tell your dreams to me
Fantasy will set you free

Close your eyes now
Look inside now
Let the sound
Take you away…

In the Name of Jesus

In my ponderings about the bible I’ve always wondered where the name Jesus came from. It simply doesn’t fit with the names of all the other people surrounding him from a linguistic perspective. In other words, it’s not like the other names used by those particular cultures at that particular time. I’ve never really been able to explain it to myself in a satisfactory way, it just didn’t add up right. Why that name – “Jesus”?

I’ve heard something somewhere about a tribe of Spanish speaking Hebrews and at first I was like “ok”, but it still didn’t really explain anything. The myth itself has been retold since the dawn of history, each time with a different name for the Son of Man. The names are not arbitrary, they are from words that in their day described a function of the son of man within the body of humanity.

Until you get to “Jesus”, which does not describe such a function in any known language that I’m aware of. Now that bugs me, because I KNOW there is something behind it, something less obscure than a lone tribe of spanish speaking jews randomly gaining the right to “name” the Son of Man for all of Christendom. I play with it now and then but end up letting it go because it hasn’t been a priority on the list of stuff to figure out.

A good friend of mine takes Ritalin for ADHD and he was telling me how it helps him organize his thoughts better. I know my mind has a similar (dis)function and that’s why I never get to spend more than about 3 mental ticks on any one thing unless I go into a trance. I’m curious so I ask him if I’d notice the effects from a single dose and he’s like “oh yeah, the first time I tried one I couldn’t believe it”.

Too tempting for me to pass up, I decided to obtain a sample for a little in house laboratory testing. We got a nice rainy day so I fueled up the launch vehicle and away we went. I wouldn’t say the effect was anything noticeably profound, in a way it was like drinking coffee with similar positive and negative effects, they were just smoothed out and longer lasting.

I did a few things to see if my brain was working on any kind of new level that I wasn’t previously privvy to, but I couldn’t tell for sure. It seemed like my brain hemispheres were connecting a little better, but then the physical effects were getting to be a little uncomfortable. My stomach was getting really sour so I threw down a few Tums and laid down next to my cat.

I hadn’t planned on zoning out, I was just laying there for a moment of kitty quality time. I don’t believe I was thinking about anything in particular when I went into it, but when I came out of a rather deep trance, I could see the answer forming. At first it seemed too stupid and simple, but for me that kind of stuff usually ends up working.

I saw what I can only describe as two lines of my weird math coming together, from the spanish angle and the functional meaning angle. There are times when I can use the tension built up in my mind like a bow and take a “long shot” hoping a single weird idea or “arrow” strikes the target. I’ve gotten pretty good with a bow, I know when my arrow hits home and this one was a bullseye.

If you take the name Jesus and pronounce the J as an H but leave the rest of the pronunciation as is, you have Hesus, or more accurately “He’s Us”. It makes absolute sense. E. Pluribus Unum – from Many… One, the Son of Man… “He is US = He’s us = Hesus = Jesus”. I love it when shit comes together in a way that makes sense and this makes absolute perfect sense. The Name is also the Mean, a functional term for what the Son of Man is, the absolute mean average “person” in the Body of People – he literally is US. It’s too simple and elegant to not be right on target.

Remember that Christianity really became an established religion with the Nicene Council and what they were trying to do. Christianity was a “new” religion, based on the promise of a future goal that hadn’t been achieved yet. The “old” religions were based on things that had actually been achieved by so called ascended masters. They couldn’t use any names from existing religions for obvious reasons so they had to make up a completely new name. This is why it doesn’t seem to fit into the biblical “story” properly. Remember they had no idea who the actual person would be, so they invented a mythical descriptive name that denotes a FUTURE function within a NEW body of humanity. Positively brilliant when you realize all they were up to.

I honestly have no idea how much of it had to do with the Ritalin, in my own mind it’s just pieces falling into place in a grand puzzle. I don’t want to grab any more genius credit than I deserve, I’m just excited because it represents a kind of personal milestone for me. I mean seriously, as simple as it seems now, that little riddle has been in the back of my mind bugging me for decades.

Like I said tho, I know when my arrow hits home and this one penetrated the heart of an extremely rare and elusive animal that I’ve been hunting for a very long time. Of course it’s still mythical just like all the others, but now it makes total sense why they used that particular name. The Name now holds meaning and power, the kind of power you would expect behind the name of the Son of Man… People Power.

No Guru for Me

I have no gurus or anybody I can look up to and follow in their footsteps for the simple reason that nobody has ever achieved what I’m trying to do. Resurrection has been achieved, but never in this way with the numbers and power levels we’re currently at.

Looking back on my life, what I have had is exemplary teachers. Some of them stand out as gurus of sorts in their respective fields for their enormous contribution to the work of humanity and are justifiably recognized for it. I highly respect them and do my best to learn what they have to teach, but they didn’t accomplish what I’m trying to do.

Most of my best teachers have been rather ordinary people with a unique perspective at the time I needed it. Some I loved and some I didn’t particularly like, but they all had something to teach, both from experience and from the heart. Those that have been the most influential on me were the most passionate about what they preached, but real passion because they wholeheartedly believed in what they were doing… not just saying, but DOING with their lives.

Simply put, if you don’t believe in what you’re saying and doing, I’m not a very receptive listener. If what you’re saying doesn’t match what you’re doing, I’m receptive only to the point of discovering that incongruency and then I switch to a different channel. I’m a very demanding student, I demand your knowledge comes from experience and I also demand to be engaged by your presentation.

There are a lot of very bright people out there capable of talking way over my head about their chosen subject. I don’t doubt they’re bright, but honestly, how can I really tell if you can’t present your shit in a language we both understand? I also demand that you be able to explain your stuff to a fourth grader, because if you can’t you’re useless to the average person trying to gain a greater understanding of it.

People that are following someone who’s already done what they’re trying to do are lucky in that they know both that it can be done, and that there is a sort of pattern to follow. While I don’t have that, I’m still very lucky in that whenever I needed the type of instruction I so fervently demand, it’s been there for me.

It’s not limited to people, everything in nature has mastered something thru trial and error. I learn so much from the nature around me, plants, animals, even bugs on my kitchen counter. I’m not like St. Francis with birds landing on my shoulder or anything, but I have kept my relationship to nature close enough to realize that the nature I’m studying is my own, in everything from ants to galaxies.

There is no absolute guarantee that I’m going to achieve what I’ve set out to do, but if I don’t, it certainly won’t be for lack of good teachers because I’ve been lucky to have the very best. It also won’t be for lack of belief because nobody believes we can do this more than I do, and even that is because those who taught me believed.

I just wanted to take a moment to thank all my teachers, because I don’t know that I ever have in any meaningful way. I know the most meaningful thank you will come from achieving what I’m endeavoring to do with my life, but while we’re still waiting… thank you ALL from the bottom of my heart.

Learning to Dance

I’m starting to get a glimpse of things in a musical sense. You can see musical progression in our history. After a single giant cymbal crash it begins as a symphony. The music is like a lullaby, soft, erotic, intoxicating to the soul. Dissonance has been introduced to a state of total harmonic silence, the key note that contains all other notes within its range of harmonics has sounded.

As the music progresses, creation progresses, a myriad of harmonics and tones spring out of silence into existence, each in it’s turn becoming a keynote and bringing forth it’s own series of harmonics. For 1 to become 2 it must also become 1/2, its reciprocal. Thus music, and life, “grow” in opposite directions from One, we see this as division and multiplication… 1,2,3,4,5 – 1, 1/2, 1/3, 1/4, 1/5. We see a growing world population but it is the reciprocal of the division occurring within us that we’re really looking at.

From the introduction of a single dissonant tone (Lucifer) eventually springs the entire musical scale of creation. The first note sets the tone of creation, it is neither melody nor beat but the beginning of both. It gradually becomes a melody and as that melody becomes more complex beating is introduced. Like us, the population grows, more percussion and harsher sounding instruments are used, thereby increasing harmonic dissonance… what we see as more conflict and the resultant suffering.

You can see how the progression is going, from classical, to jazz, to blues in all it’s forms, to rock, to hard rock, to metal, to rap and hip-hop, all introducing progressively harsher tones and more violent beating. Once vocals are introduced into music it’s the same trend. It starts out as soft harmonic chanting and progresses thru messages of love and devotion to messages of beating your enemy to death with a bang.

It’s unavoidable, because all of those “beats” are us, our individual heartbeats. Growth means separation, separation brings dissonance but it also means individuality. Perfect harmony isn’t lack of individuality, but rather maximum individuality in a state of cohesive separation. In other words, you can’t have harmony without the music.

It’s pretty easy to see what’s going to happen if things continue unchecked. The beating increases exponentially to the point where the level of harmonic dissonance disassociates all atomic bonds. Creation would literally beat itself to death unless a harmonic balancer is introduced into the system. This harmonic balancer is what Christianity refers to as the Son of Man.

Music is motion… the movement of atoms. Humans are the ultimate atoms because we have control over our own movements. By moving in a way that is contrary to the movements creating dissonance, and from the exact center of the scales of creation, a single atom or person could in fact turn this situation around. This reduces the beating long enough for the system to begin to re-balance itself. All systems are uncomfortable in a inharmonious state and seek a state of harmonic balance. We’re not talking about the complete harmonic silence from which we sprang, we want all the music of life everywhere, we just don’t want it beating us to death.

You can see that to keep this type of “have your cake and eat it too” type of system is probably going to require the services of a harmonic balancer forever. Once a priest always a priest, resurrection means it’s a lifetime position and your lifetime is now forever. This is just another way of looking at christic consciousness, it requires a harmonic balancer within your trinity. What is being balanced is man and his god, without this third person it’s a fight to the death between man and his god with the god usually winning.

All dissonance is removed and you become your god, living in your creation (or rather god’s half of it). You enjoy perfect order, the silence of complete harmony, nirvana… in short, utter boredom once you realize it. It’s spiritual substance abuse, nirvana is basically sitting there reveling in your own creation, masturbating your ego until the high wears off and you realize you have to come back down to reality for another fix… ascension – reincarnation – ascension.

By engaging the third or middle aspect of our trinity, our third “I” we can take control of the music, not by stopping it, but by conducting the orchestra, which at this point is a 7 billion member rock and roll band. I think I’m learning to dance to the whole song of life and it is that very magical dance that is moving contrary to the dissonance of this world. “Give me the beat boys and free my soul, I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away…”.

Honestly, I think if we can find the universal rhythm of life and learn how to dance, we will begin to experience the magic of our divine inheritance.